how can i do this...?

so.. i'm supposed to think and act like nothing happened. just erase the people who hurt me from my life and not give them another chance, because they do not deserve it. it's fine. i play my part. i forget those people and smile pretty. but first i cry for a while, because it's what people consider normal, because it's what's acceptable, because it's what i came to know as true myself. ok, now what? people tell me then, because everyone seems to always have advice to give, even if it isn't worth shit. "Well, now you keep on moving with your life." thing is.. you don't understand a part of my very life was left behind. time will heal things, yeah, i know. but until then i will feel empty. someone once said "the lack of love leaves an emptiness that is sooner or later replaced by hatred". well, if you're reading this, you're wrong. i could never tell you that because hurting you with my words would kill a part of myself. a feeling i know you never will have towards me. no mercy, not even to the people that nurture the truest love for you. well, fuck this i say! i had enough of being tread upon, of being lied to, of being stabbed (sometimes people have the nerve of not stabbing me in the back anymore!). you've awoken something better left dormant. now i will be the one to hurt you motherfucking bastards. i will rip your fucking arrogance from your snotty faces and rub you against the floor until you're nothing but a bloody pulp. some things are best left unsaid, others best left alone. guess what you bastards: i'm one of those things.